I want to find out what it feels like to go all the way with a dream. My OWN dream and vision for myself. I've found its much easier for me to do that for those that I work for, but I've never done it for myself. I've never been good at taking myself seriously enough to definitively say, 'I am capable of this and I'm going to do it!'
I've always felt that I had good ideas and unique ways of creating, and I've always been happy to bring this to the table when asked. I love a good challenge, and I also kind of love proving myself (and others ...) wrong. Or rather, I like proving what is possible!!
This comes from my faith in God. And realizing that position and material things mean nothing -- serving Him and people is what is most fulfilling. And it's always worth trying if you feel something is just right. I believe that only God knows our fullest potential, and will take us there if we trust him and ourselves. People and opportunity will show up in our lives randomly and push you toward that path. They'll be good people/things, bad people/things, all sorts of people/things. But you'll remember them because they changed you. If we keep ourselves aware and listening, we will see and follow signs. I do believe our spirit is a good radar that reveals if something is right. I believe we are capable of stretching ourselves and not meant to stay comfortable. I believe we're meant to make ourselves uncomfortable. Especially to get to that place where the process may feel challenging or impossible ... but its not only possible, something more will reveal itself through the process, and then also once you're there.
And this is what makes life exciting with God. The unknown. How reaching one mark inspires and provides vision for another. How reaching that last mark caused you to rely on strength you never knew you had. How you tapped into something deep inside that wouldn't have come out any other way.
One thing I've had some difficulty with over time is trusting God and knowing when I need to trust Him (i.e. God, is this the right decision? Was that the right decision) , understanding if what is in front of me is from him, and then once I'm there, giving him the glory. (Btw, THANK YOU GOD!!! Yes this moment in life is unfamiliar, but thank you for calling me to this place!!) But something I have to remember is that I'm not here to please man. I'm here to fulfill that thing that was placed in my heart with the tools I have been given to do it. God put this in me, so what am I going to do with it? Shape it myself into what fits into the ideas and molds created by man, or allow God to shape it into the unique form He created my gift for? I'll choose the latter.
Another thing -- I think trusting God means simultaneously trusting yourself. Your most honest and true self. It means choosing not to question if all those thoughts, feelings, dreams that run through your mind are coincidence .. but destiny.
Moving mountains may not mean actually moving a mountain -- although, I honestlyyyy wouldn't put anything past God. But what is the mountain in your life? My mountain is my self-doubt. Its the fear of letting people hear my voice. Its the fear of opinions. Its the fear of letting people see that I believe in God and give him glory for all that I have been able to overcome. It is my fear that I may not be good enough. That I may fail.
That's about a mountain...
So, do YOUR thing!! Follow your gut. Listen. Watch. and Move